Lately I’ve been reassessing the way I look at my schedule especially in regards to learning projects. The idea that I’ve been operating on is that I should plan out my learning strategy like I’m in a little school. I should plan for certain amounts of time in regular intervals and discipline myself to abide by that schedule. Like in a school, you go to classes for a certain amount of time and you plan for homework for a certain amount of time. The school model has been a pretty successful for me so of course I thought I would just extend it.
The only problem is that I am not in school. If I don’t show up to Hindi class there’s the internal pressure of feeling disappointed for having missed out on material or not doing what I say I’m going to do, but there’s also many external pressures–the teacher will be disappointed, I’ll get a lesser grade, wasting money by paying for school and not going to class. If I don’t show up for a scheduled Hindi reading session at my home with only me there, the internal pressures are significantly decreased and the external pressures simply don’t exist anymore.
I made an effort at creating external pressures by posting about it on this blog, but you guys are too nice. Plus, surprising not even myself, I have plenty of things to babble on and on about without troubling you with new Sanskrit material so the external “What do I write about?” pressure is out too. Supreme delusion is the only reason I can thing of to explain why I thought this would be a problem.
I recently read the Secrets of a Buccaneer-Scholar and stopped this school method of learning immediately. He talks about his mind as undisciplined. Mr. Bach, the author, moves from one topic to the next and he allows, and even revels in, this hopping from topic to topic. He doesn’t force his mind to learn any one thing at any given time.
I, on the other hand, have incredible mental discipline…and almost no progress to show for it. So when Mr. Bach talks about discipline being a hindrance to learning, I paid attention.
As with many things, I believe there is a happy medium here. Below is my newly-refined schedule:
1) Schedule learning time: If I don’t schedule it at all, it’s just not going to happen. I think this is a strength of my previously-iterated learning strategy. I simply need to be more flexible with this schedule. If it doesn’t happen during the scheduled time, then I need to cut myself some slack and just reschedule.
2) Prepare a learning space: I need to have the things necessary for investigation. While I’m not going to dictate what I’m going to learn or study at any given day or time, I can anticipate what I might be interested in. For instance, I might gather some good text books, the computer, writing and drawing materials, and whatever else I might reasonably need.
3) Ask myself what I want to learn at that time: It’s a simple question. I never ask it of myself because I always assume I know better. I, of course, am an idiot which is why I have to do this in the first place.
4) Study/learn as long as I like and switch topics if I want: Don’t pressure myself to do, read, explore, learn anything especially because I feel I should.
I’ve talked about this before, but I think mine is the first sin of goal-planning–doing because of outside pressure not because I want or need to learn something. It’s too easy to become mired in what you feel pressured to learn or do versus what you are compelled to do. Hopefully this system will help me focus more on what I want versus what I feel like I should want.